There is more than one kind of balance we can talk about ~ today I am speaking about the balance that has to do with walking a straight line.Welcome!
There is a beautiful view into our backyard, where squirrels, rabbits, robins, cardinals, finches, morning doves, goldfinches, and sparrows gather. Quite often a deer or two will cut a path through our connecting yards for us to enjoy. Trees, flowers, and bushes brighten the landscape. I have watched this view change from season to season, and never tire of its beauty. Even though at times I get tired of living life mostly from my living room, how safe and cozy I feel in my sanctuary. I am blessed.
Wednesday, July 15, 2009
Keeping Balance In Your Life
There is more than one kind of balance we can talk about ~ today I am speaking about the balance that has to do with walking a straight line.Monday, July 13, 2009
A Good Laugh
What makes you laugh? For me the TV show The Golden Girls pops into my mind first. They are such characters and can be so out of line but so funny at the same time. Another show that makes me laugh is a ridiculous show on the USA channel..."Psyche". I cannot even tell you who the stars of the show are , but it makes me laugh. Funniest Home Videos is another good one to get your shoulders shaking, and I mentioned before that I like to watch the movie "Birdcage" when I am down and out. The antics of animals are another way to bring a smile to my face. I cannot leave out the many books that bring humor into our lives. One of my favorite's is titled, "Fifty Acres And A Poodle" about a couple who move from the big city to the country with their dogs.

Saturday, July 11, 2009
Saturday's Scribbles
Thursday, July 9, 2009
Yeast Gone Wild Part II
First of all I did not know that a NAET treatment would kill off yeast the way it has. I think I will be having her also treat the Lyme and coinfections more too. NAET will be part of my healing plan.
I also use probiotics on a daily basis. Actually I take double the recommended dose to counteract the antibiotics being constantly in my body. I also use two different herbal yeast remedies...Phytostan and Yeast Formula. I used to eat A LOT of yogurt, but I can no longer tolerate it. I ate organic yogurt with 10 different probiotics in it. Organic Keifer is good too!
Some people take diflucan or nystatin, both of which my body rejected.
Jozephine mentioned to me the yeast free diet and that is very important too. Our LLMD says 2 serviings of fruit a day...1/2 banana.....1 small apple, etc. NO sugars of any kind and no simple carbs which turn into sugar in your body and feed the yeast. As a warning, our LLMD told Joel she had one man who would not follow the yeast free diet and ended up unable to work for 18 mo. due to systemic yeast throughout his body. It is serious stuff.
I am already feeling less "yeasty" so that is good. Just like the musical, "Oz" I am "movin' on down .....movin' on down the road" believing that yeast is no longer wild, but being tamed as I write.
Wednesday, July 8, 2009
Yeast Gone Wild
I am doing research on the Cowden and Zhang treatment plans for Lyme using herbs. I really don't want to keep damaging my body anymore. I see endless years ahead for this and have decided to do my own research and take over more control of how I live the rest of my life.
If I truly have to live with Lyme, CFS, and MCS for the rest of my days, I am going to be making some of the choices in how I manage it all, doing what is best for me to have some quality of life.
For today, "yeast gone wild" is going down!
Tuesday, July 7, 2009
Being A Gentle Observer
I was mostly curious at first, and then became drawn in to what those who really knew him were saying about him. Looking past the altered image of his face, strange behaviors, alleged abuse of children, and what looks to be a prescription drug problem, there was a real person who had real feelings and who was a genius in his field of music. Looking at him through other people eyes gave me insights into what I had missed with my critical spirit getting in the way of being a gentle observer. His memorial was both a service of worship and a celebration of his life. May God be with His children, family, and friends.
Monday, July 6, 2009
LOL
I laughed right out loud at HOW I had written that ~ like I did not know how a drunk person would act. Drinking is not part of my life, but I do know how those who drink too much act..
SIGH...I meant I looked up what Flagyl symptoms would be for "acting drunk"....my brain fog was in high gear...but it gave me a good laugh.
It is nice to have my brain back to "normal" which of course involves Lyme and brain fog, but is normal for me! Ha!
Sunday, July 5, 2009
Saturday, July 4, 2009
Saturday's Scribbles
It is the 4th of July here in the good ol' USA! Joel just came upstairs wearing his "flag shirt" that our oldest son and family gave him a few years back. Last night we watched the fireworks from our living room window. They are set off near the High School just a few blocks from us, and we are able to watch from the window or backyard. I must confess we were both so tired, we debated whether to stay up or not but decided the booms would keep us awake, so we pulled our chairs up and enjoyed the show!We are pretty patriotic people. Eight years in the Air Force will do that to you. I always remember how respectful the military was of the flag in the 70's. If you went to a movie on the base, before it started the flag would come up on the screen and the whole theater would quickly stand at attention while the Star Spangled Banner was played. If you were driving or walking on the base when it was time for the flag to be lowered....everything stopped..you would see car doors opened and soldiers standing at attention until the flag went down. This often moved me to tears. I really liked most everything about the military life, but Joel did not feel called to the military, so he opted for an early out to go to seminary and the rest is a beautiful history.
We spend most actual holidays alone together except for Thanksgiving every other year, and at times it is challenging for us as we watch families gather and have a good time. Envy is not something I usually deal with, but I find it coming up once in awhile when I see my sister getting together with her two children and their families several times a year AND for nearly every holiday. They go to their daughters for a week twice a year and their son and family come up for a few days each time too. They are close, enjoy each other and get along very well. I confess, I feel sad at times that Joel and I cannot enjoy more family gatherings. Our fellow blogger, Jozephine, would remind me of her truth-speaking quote....."compare and despair"! It has helped me more than once to see where my thoughts were heading! When I grew up family was soooooo important. We came together, put aside any differences, and were kind and loving to each other. Sometimes it was an effort because we all had different ideas on parenting, etc. but the key was putting love before expectations and our own agenda. We had FUN! GREAT FUN. They all still get together and I hope to be able to do that one day again when I am better. I miss the companionship of my family and I now know what a blessing it was to be able to enjoy each other so much.
Joel and I rented a movie to watch today. "Last Chance Harvey". It sounds good...but of course you can't go by what the movie critics put out there. One of my top favorite movies that I have watched several times is "Under The Tuscan Sun". I really should reflect on why I love that movie so much! My favorite for years was "Out of Africa"....for obvious reasons. I have laughed my head off at the move, "Birdcage" many times. Nathan Lane is a hoot in that movie. A movie I used to watch over and over years ago was 70's movie called "The Wilderness Family". Silly now, but with my desire to live in Africa or Alaska...it, too, was an obvious choice for me. I must be honest and add one more favorite of the 80's....the movie "Dirty Dancing" with Patrick Swayze. I used to dance every day of my life, and the dancing in that movie was great!
Speaking of dancing, it is one thing I miss so much about my mom. She never came to visit that we did not do the two-step a few times around the house. When she was in a wheelchair at one of our kids wedding, we just danced with her from there...and I have danced in a sitting position a few times myself. My mom was a great dancer...a great musician in her day. She was one of those smooth dancers who only move from the waist down....gliding across the floor.
Guess I will go glide my way out to the kitchen for lunch. For those who celebrate the 4th, have a great day in the "Land of the Free". Among other places, it is a good place to be.
Thursday, July 2, 2009
First Do No Harm
insomnia
nightmares when I did sleep
extreme anxiety
intense neuropathy
unable to rest during day
weird brain feelings
metallic taste in mouth
bone pain
muscle cramps
difficulty swallowing at times
diarrhea
weakness ~ hard to even hold a glass of water
unable to walk straight
Some symptoms die off, some side effects. All of them awful.
I have never felt so toxic in my life. First do no harm keeps echoing in my head. How can this be helpful for anyone? I have stopped the treatment for H pylori. Hopefully it was enough.
It was enough for me.

